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Suzie stood in her bedroom with the letter in her hand. “Suzie” was written in Drew’s bold script over the top. Clearly he’d expected her to open his suitcase and find it sitting there on top of his belongings. Did he really think she wouldn’t respect his privacy? Did he not know her at all?
“You were right,” was the first sentence of his letter. Never had that sentence seemed more bitter.
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Dear Suzie,
You were right. I shouldn’t have gone.
I didn’t think you could love me if I weren’t true to myself, and being true to myself meant doing my job. If I was right, then I have already lost everything, including you.
It doesn’t matter that I did it for my job. The truth is that I have changed, and not in a good way. I’m afraid if I turned up on your porch now, you’d call the police. A part of me thinks you should.
I’ve become a drug addict.
It’s been a few weeks now, but I still live in a fog. I’m never entirely sure what I have done when I come to myself. It isn’t like sleep walking, though. It’s more like worms are eating my memories. I struggle constantly to make myself feel and act the way I used to, but I can’t.
Can you be lenient with me? Can you accept what I have become? Right now, my only hope is that you will not turn me away. My greatest fear is that I will see pity in your eyes when you see me.
So I’ve taken some time off. I’m going to travel a little in the hopes it will help clear my head. Things have been changing in ways I hope will prove good. As long as I think I might be able to handle this on my own, I’ll keep going.
These suits and things are just in my way right now. I’ve been lugging them around like so much emotional baggage. For now, a wallet is all I really need. I’m hoping some day I’ll be able to fit into them again. In the meanwhile, I will leave it all in your safe keeping.
I don’t know if I still have a job. I don’t know what’s going to happen to me. Worst of all, I don’t know if you can still love me or not. I can only try to make myself worthy, then come back to you.
Love,
Drew
That idiot! Did he really think she’d reject him? He should just come home. Suzie pulled her cell phone out of a pocket and called him. A phone in the suitcase rang. Suzie collapsed on her bed next to the suitcase and laughed so hard she cried.
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I wanted the letter and I loved it, even though it’s tearing me up inside. I wonder: Is it healthy to be this attached to characters? lol
Excellent as always, Alice.
I understand where he’s coming from. He wants to be his best self for her. What he doesn’t realize is that sometimes we love people even more when they give us a chance to help.
I’m with Bryn, you are killing me here. But I loved it!! Tks!! Now have him call her.
Bryn, if it isn’t healthy, then book a double room!!
LOL!
A wonderful prose, a welcomed change from the usual verses. Such encounters might happen to anybody. The saving grace is that he is crying for help not adamant or demanding. That should melt a little sympathy from Suzie. But is Drew sincere? Nice write, Alice!
Hank
Aw how sad I hope he decides to come home to his Suzie.The letter was beautiful by the way.
oh man, nice twist on the emotions…for her and us….and now what has he gone and got himself into and will it be all the worse him out there on his adventure….had to smile at the cell int he suitcase…
In this I have to disagree with the others that want an instant reunion. I think Drew has to get himself straight first before he comes home. He’s doing the right thing. It’s up to him.
Good work, Alice!
That wasn’t what I expected..but maybe it has more value than money? I like the change in style and content..it shows great insight..and of course, you leave us aching for more..Jae
What bitter irony was the call she made was to his cell phone in the suitcase in front of her. Suzie will be kicking herself she didn’t say to him at some point “Whatever happens, this is your home and you will always be safe with me”. I think there is much more to look forward to in this saga.
Oh!! the letter is heart breaking but there is still hope. That’s a bold decision by Drew.
I sure hope he will call her one day and realized that family can help him.
I am getting attached to your story too like everyone else here
I think she’s wrong to hang on to his stuff, to him. He sounds like he will always come first and love should be an equal partnership…
I love the idea, but am concerned that it’s so much more lucid than the man you’ve shown us. Did someone else write this? Was it something Drew worked on when he was escaping the worms?
Hmm. Guess I’ve got to wait to find out.
You missed a few. Drew’s head has been getting clearer for a while now.